And it’s possible to feel multiple conflicting emotions at once?

I cannot support that.  I cannot support that there are certain people whom I cannot bring myself to cut the final string of friendship (facebook) even though I get sharp pangs at any gf related update.  I cannot support the feelings of elation at the idea of getting to dress up in 20’s costume co-existing with the pangs of forlornity that I get just from one photo that I cannot stop myself from looking at.  

How come, after millennia of soul searching, no one has yet come up the exact word I’m looking for to describe how I’m feeling right at this moment?

Except that the Germans probably have and I’ll never know it until it’s too late because I don’t know German.